Monday, October 12, 2009

Going to the doctor today didn't do much to ease my anxiety any less.

I am however no longer afraid of whatever lies ahead. I am however still wondering a waiting to see exactly what it is that my Father has in store for me.

That's the trick I think. Being faithful enough to wait in the wilderness, and not just to wait there but to wait patiently. This is probably the hardest thing that I have ever done. I want so much for this to just be over. I am more than ready to get through this season of my life. So ready to completely just rush through it and move on to the next one. That's all that I can think of maybe the next season will be better than the one I am currently in.

I find myself ashamed of the fact that I'm so scared in this season of life that I want ot skip right on through it and move on to the next. At the same time though what am I missing here. What blessings does he have for me right now that I am missing because of my fear?

Eccleastics 3:1

To everything there is a season,
and a time to every purpose under the heaven.

I am praying now that God will show me the purpose in this season.


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