Learning

I'm learning quickly lately that nothing happens by accident. Nothing suprises God and nothing is ever allowed to happen without a specific purpose.

I am in the middle of a huge growing time. I'm literally watching everything I've ever known fall beautifully to pieces. ANd i am powerless to stop it. People I thought would be there forever have found one reason or another to bail out on me. Which I guess I can understand I am alot to handle.

No I don't understand. I can't understand or seem to make myself understand how adn why God would so meticulously surround me with people I love and who love me( or i thought loved me) and people who stand in the gap for me nad Ifor them could just walk away without shedding a single tear.

I want to understand. I do I want so badly to understand.