Friday night I had a first date. Well I guess I can't technically call it a first date because technically we had our thing in high school. Long story short it didn't end well. But the christian in me said you have to forgive and forget. You may be the only bible he ever reads. Went ot a movie and dinner in opposite order. Yes kissing was involved but that wasn't the temptation. I learned early on in the date that he was nervous. I'd never seen him nervous before at least not in front of me. Yet old habits die hard. However I didn't have the desire to push the boundaries like I thought I would.
I did have a hard time telling my circle and KD. I was actually more terrified of telling KD than I was of telling anybody all I could think was she's going to kill me. ( obviously she didn't) But this date was not where temptation came into play.
Sunday night I had some rather interesting texting conversation with yet another ex. I know I know, yall are thinking how many does she have. ENOUGH. Enough to get into trouble . I saw him monday and didn't really think anything of it.
Until we were alone riding around Millen. We finally parked and chatted for a few minutes then I had to go watch One Act . I went to open the door and he said your not getting off that easy and instantly I knew what he meant. I don't ever think my face has ever turned red that fast. Nor have I lost my breathe that fast. He just shook his head, and finally after a few moments of silence I said mind reading is not my God given gift so do what you need to do or let me go. You know the next sentence without me writing it.
Got into my car and instantly prayed lord please help me because in a few moments I could be in alot of trouble. The entire way to one Act all I could think was please dont let it be written all over my face because she will kill me.
We had a long talk after and she said Beth don't you think Satan knows how lonely you are, dont you think he knows that you're looking for a way out. Which of course made perfect sense but I was angry with her for pointing it out.
I haven't seen him in a few days which has given me time to figure out my faith in this and not just my feelings. God always provides a way for us to walk out with our feeling intact.
For the time being mine are and I ask that you pray that I seek his answers in this.
No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. 1 Corinthians 10:13
